Today is a sad day for me. 8 years ago my mother passed away. The pain has
definitely faded and life does go on. I remember so many things from that day. In May of that year for mothers day she came to Medicine Hat and had her first pedicure (my gift). After her pedicure her legs started to swell...it was the beginning of the end. She continued to not feel well all summer. I didn't realize the seriousness of it until I went to visit her on the Sept. long weekend. I was shocked at her appearance and went with her to her
Doctor demanding to get things done. She was scheduled for tests but had to wait 6 months still. I remember crying in the doctors office demanding that he get her in to the hospital. My mother was
always so kind and never demanded things she needed me to get her help. She was put into the hospital that
Tuesday and never got out.
I don't think anyone believed that she would die. I know that I didn't realize that would be the outcome. The day she died was conference weekend and I was busy trying to feed a house full of guests. I was
definitely being a Martha instead of a Mary. It had been a very difficult 6 weeks with having a small child and a very sick mom in
Lethbridge it was wearing on me. I wish, if I could change anything, I would have been with her when she died instead of doing things that didn't really matter.
We
received a phone call to get to the hospital as soon as possible. Sean drove like a madman reaching 180 trying to get me there on time. I ran in and it was to late she was gone. Later when we were leaving the hospital I remember being absolutely shocked that life went on for others. We passed doctors and nurses laughing with each other, people eating, mothers comforting sick children in the ER. It was like a fog and I couldn't understand how the world did not stop at the death of the greatest woman I know.
I miss you mom. I am so grateful for all you have done for me. My mother is an amazing women. She really had it all together. I know that she had gone ahead and is preparing our place. She was a little like you Joanne, super organized! Never a dust particle would dare land in her house! The thing that makes me the most sad is that she never really got to see what a great girl my London is turning out to be!
We are planning to go to the temple on Friday and in planning London said how much she would like to go again. That made me so proud that she has a desire to be worthy and make the effort to go. I am grateful for the temple ordinances that seal us all together! How blessed I am to have this
knowledge.
I can't post pictures of my mom as I don't have any digital ones and my scanner is out of commission. Just know she was beautiful inside and out!